How I feel , now adays

I never imagine that I would ever felt this way emptiness and soul pain that will never stop.

 I am really angry of everything and everyone that changed my life but I am not blame

I can't turn back the time, the age or the lost Opportunities.

All I know... All I learned in my life is keep working and running after completing my education but I am jobless now and not able to carrying on university. I know I tried to do my best to be educated and achieved my dream but nothing by my hand now.

I don’t want to find myself at the end  wasting my time by letting the situations , people and circumstances  limited my life ... my soul and my choices ... 

I am really tired of fighting ... but I can't surrender ...Not now....

I have to find another way to compensate for what I missed ... when I was not strong enough ... cause I care about others and left what I care and pleasure at the end of my priorities.... 

But now there is no time to waste.... scarring luck... 

I need to change the pain ... Need to feel I am live again.... 

I really don’t know how to start ... and where.....

All I know I need to change everything around... 

Need to taste the life pleasures......